Going through the process of getting a movie screened was something I never thought would happen. When I submitted my movie, I did it just so I could say ‘I tried.’ When I got the email saying ‘your panel has been accepted’ I think my heart skipped a beat. I didn’t think a furry con would be interested in a short film showing-let alone a horror movie. I emailed back and forth with one of the con runners who was extremely helpful through all my questions, since I’d never really been to many panels-let alone host one!
I made flyers for the event-and I really was thinking ‘no one will show up, people might not be interested in a movie’. When I arrived Friday, I had forgotten to pre-registar! So I thought I wouldn’t even beable to get into the con that night, but luckily I was able to get in. So that whole thing was a bit stressful, plus with everything else on my mind.
I didn’t sleep a wink Friday, I was so excited and jittery, but honestly it was a good feeling overall. Some anxiety, but I think I became less nervous as the panel approached because I knew, hey whatever happens will happen. My movie is sceening in Boston, my name is in the Anthro New England con book. This is cool!
Saturday I passed out most of my flyers and I was so surprised to find out how many people wanted to see my movie. It was mind blowing. That night, I got changed into my suit (no, not a fursuit) and I spent a long time running up and down stairs, getting the AV situated, the ANE staff were super helpful. I had even lost my name tag in among all the craziness and had to get a new one. My brain was spinning by the time we got the projector set up and I knew everything would work.
About 7:30, two people show up. In the back of my head, I thought ‘well, I know my two closer friends will show-but will this be it?’ About 7:50-maybe three people walked in. I was pretty happy. Right before I introduced the movie-about 8 more people showed. I pinched myself the whole time. I had about 25 people seeing my movie-in front of me, in Boston at a furry con. It felt like a dream and as the movie played-I felt hazy. In a great way. This is something I’ve fantaized about for so long, but never thought it would happen. I did have one walk out, but another gentleman took his spot-so I shrugged it off.
The Q&A was a lot more fun than I thought it would be. I didn’t think anyone would be interested to hear how I made the movie, but as I stood there I realized no one was leaving. Again, it felt like a dream. I felt like some internet celebrity. At this point, I was so full of energy, I was able to talk about anything really.
I talked to a few people who wished to help me with furutre projects, so who knows? You may see some new faces in my work soon! After, mom and I each had a drink at the bar and I was kinda in shock. I wasn’t really able to process what happened, again this was something I never thought could happen to me. On the way home, I talked to my cousin Nick about the event-which was super fun as it was nice to just let my emotions pour out.
Anthro New England and the furry fandom made a dream come true-and this gives me another reason to defend the fandom and its partcipates, it’s an amazing group of people and without them-I feel like I’d be kinda a nobody for the most part. I think other furries can relate to that. This was a special night I’ll never forget.